Coffee Talk-- Fall Happenings

If we were to get together for coffee this morning I'd probably talk too much. Like usual. I'd tell you how much I'm loving fall right now. It has been so beautiful here--so warm! Usually this frustrates me because I like to be snuggled up in sweaters but for two littles this weather has been a dream. A lot of time recently has been spent jumping in leaves, or at the zoo, or on walks. It has been really nice but I have a feeling it is about to come to an end. I'm pretty sure I saw snow in the future forecast. Oh Montana, one extreme to the next. 

I would then go on to tell you how hard my three year old is. Or I guess I should say threenager. Harper is so sassy. Her favorite activity is seeing how far she can push me on a daily basis. It is exhausting. But I also love this age. She is becoming an amazing girl. She is so in tune to the thoughts and feelings of others. She makes everyone smile and feel loved. She just wants us all to always be happy. Also, she cried at Paw Patrol the other day because Marshall ran away. It was the sweetest thing ever. I mean, yeah it is a cartoon, but how amazing is her heart? She's three and to be able to empathize like that has me impressed. I love her so much, sass and all.

 Then I'd tell you about Finley. How at 17 months she is the complete opposite of Harper. She is outgoing, and a huge extravert. She doesn't need me or anyone else. She wants to brave the world by herself all the time. Miss Independent.

 

Harper at her age was so timid and quiet. Finley makes her presence known. Maybe its a second child thing. She feels like she needs to try harder to get notices. She is my little free spirit. She will be the kid that doesn't come home at curfew. I just know it. Gosh I love her though. Though she be little, she is fierce and I hope she always stays this way.

I'd  then go on to tell you that these days i'm tired. So tired. A lot of coffee and Diet Coke is consumed in this house on a daily basis. I'd tell you that tired or not I'm really clinging to this season of life. I know as the girls get older I'll long for these days. That is why the other night when Finley would only sleep if she was laying on me, I let her sleep. One day she won't ask me to hold her and fall asleep on me. One day I'm going to look back at these days I think are so hard, and realize they were actually easy. Whats going to be hard is helping them through hurt feelings, failures and heartaches. So I'll take these some times long and repetitive days and embrace all of them.

Lastly, I'd tell you thank you. For those of you who reached out to me after reading my last post, your kind words made me realize that sharing my journey was the right thing to do. Things have gotten much better since I wrote that post. Sometimes you have to endure the rain to enjoy the sunshine. That is the beautiful thing about depression. Coming out of the funk is amazing and your kind words to me did not go unnoticed. Man, I love this community.
How are things for you?